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I am currently working to be in the top 100 girls of the site I cam at. This means that at the end of the month I will be listed as one out of the 100 girls that made the most money on the site.

A typical day for me right now:

Wake up at noon after fighting a battle of wills with my phone alarm snooze button.

My phones homepage will already be on my cam sites homepage. I refresh manically to see if my ranking has changed. If it has gone up I am overcome with joy. If it has gone down, I feel like there is literally no point to existence – I know this is over dramatic and there is a lot of more important things happening in the world. But really.

Update my social media. Post a picture of me topless (Like hell am I going to show them anything with my face in it when I look this bad) with a “rankings gone up guys! Lets keep it going!” or a “Booo ranking has fallen! Lets keep it going guys!” message.

Now time to get coffee, update my earnings spreadsheet, update my ranking spreadsheet, make a list of all the materials I need to buy for different shows I have planned, make a list of all the things I will need for the upcoming g/g shows I have planned, make a list of all the videos I owe people, all the panties I have to send off, all the custom videos I have to make, all the cookies I need to send out, all my regulars I need to message back.

This will take about 1-2 hours, and thats before I have even started on getting myself showered and ready for my first cam shift of the day. I am always late for my shifts, but I try and make it up to my regs with cute pictures on twitter, constant snapchat and kik updates and being wonderfully entertaining on cam.

When I am on cam I am always switched on. They will never know if I am having a bad day. I always try to keep my shows interesting and entertaining. I never log on not knowing what I am going to do, I always pre-plan ideas and costumes and contests for the guys to enter so they never view me as boring. The way I see it is I am entertainment. I can't log on and expect money to be thrown at me because I'm what these people consider attractive. You can watch porn for that. You can open any magazine and see an attractive girl. What my fans like me for is the interactive experience. They are willing to pay well for that experience.

My shift is 4 hours. Being ‘on' for that amount of time is exhilarating, and watching the amount of money I earn rise, and my ranking rise is also exhilarating.

By the time I log off I am exhausted. I usually go and grab some food, watch TV and zone off for a little while. Maybe have a nap, though I will wake up in the middle and obsessively check my ranking again, see if I have fallen lower or higher. I feel guilty resting, because every moment I'm not on cam my ranking could be falling. I don't even care about the money. It's all about rank. By that time I am awake and can't sleep so I am right back to planning again. Updating my spreadsheets from the last shift. Editing content that I am going to send out to people. Trying to get the video as professional and smooth looking as possible. Some more twitter updates and snapchats and kik. I don't want my guys to forget about me.

Pretty soon it's time for my night time shift which is another 4 or 5 hours, and then I manage to get to bed around 3am, though I usually can't sleep straight away as I am too wired.

I will sometimes wake up to check my ranking in the middle of the night.

When I am doing a top 100 month, I will do this almost every day of the month. I do try and take days off, but I end up feeling so guilty and I can just see my rank falling as the other girls get online and make more money than me so it's really difficult to take time off.

My guys really get behind me, and the closer we get to the end of the month the more competitive they get. All of them want to help me achieve my goal and it really feels like a group effort.

I live with my boyfriend, and he has just come to terms with the fact that when I do a top 100 month he just has to stay out of my way! He will NOT get to see me. I am lucky that he supports me and puts up with me, because a top 100 month is a bit like constant PMT. I am stressed, tired, cranky and snappy and I WILL cry if my rank falls.

I plan to do top 20 one day. I think he is planning on booking a holiday that month!

I wrote this so that you could see a typical day of a cam girl working hard. I feel like so many people just see us having fun on cam chatting and laughing and don't realize how much work we put into this, or how much time we invest and personal relationships we sacrifice.

I am 23 years old, and most of my friends are in dead end jobs and getting wasted all the time, or they live off their parents money. I am self sufficient and have enough to support my boyfriend and I and by the end of this year I plan to have enough for a down payment on a house for us.

Most of my friends don't know that I'm a cam girl as I live in quite conservative town. I don't know what they think. I think they think my boyfriends family is really rich and I am just living off his money!

No one in my life knows how hard I work or how business minded I am.

Now I'm feeling guilty for spending too much time writing this – better check my ranking again!


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